..Well malamang hindi tungkol sa akin ito dahil sapul wala naman akong lover! harumph..hehe.. Anyway the story is about a couple that caught my attention while I was in Glorietta (as in kanina lang, at atat daw akong maishare!hehe). Galing kasi ko sa isang job interview and pauwi na ako. So, ayon, while I was walking kanina, I heard someone shouting at the back, actually di nman gaanong malakas pero enough na para marinig ng chismosa kong tenga. Ayon, he was talking to his what I think is his lover (yes, both of them were gays). The guy who was so pissed with his "special friend" seems to be a metro-homo sexual, maputi, makinis, naka-wax ang may kulay na buhok, at nakaporma ng maayos.While the other one was moreno, naka shirt and shorts saka nakatsinelas. And for that reason galit si metro-homo. Ayun, he keeps on saying that why this moreno guy would go out and meet him in that kind of attire. Hindi man lang daw marunong mag ayos. High blood na si metro-homo because of that, awa ever naman ako kay moreno guy kasi ang lakas ng boses ni metro-homo and nakakahiya if I were him, to think maayos naman yung suot ni moreno guy, di nga lang pasok sa standards ni metro homo. Eh di etong si moreno guy said dadaan na lng siya ng shop at bibili ng maganda gandang tsinelas para okay na sila ni metro home, but the metro homo said that he doesnt want him to buy something because of him. Sabi niya what he was trying to say is that sana si moreno guy ay matutong mag ayos ng sarili niya, not for metro homo's sake but for his own. Ayun naman pala, nagkecare lang si metro homo, may point din naman. At dun natapos yung conversation, not because nagkaayos na sila, but because humiwalay na ako, uwi na ako eh! hehe.. Pero hopefully magkaayos na sila, which mukha namang maayos, haler petty LQ lang naman eh, nakakatuwa lng makichismis..haha! Ibang klaseng pagkecare meron si metro homo, sige nice one! ;p
And this is why I hate checking other people's profiles, (actually, there's just one in particular). It doesnt give me the kind of feeling you have when you're missing someone (the normal thing you feel when you visit an old friend's site) but on the contrary gave me something terrible. It starts with an anticipated change in the speed of my heartbeat and then an unxeplainable feeling of anger. Grrr... I know I'd be feeling this, I usually do that's why as much as possible Im avoiding to do such kind if I can help it. But since Im used in to going against my own rules, here I go and so here's what I got. Hmp. Okay, never would I do that again. Atleast for the mean time. thanks blog. ;p
Hay naku, just when I thought I can have all the time I need to finish all my pending leisure activities, moresoever I would like to call as my "me-time bonding with me-self" (hehe), wala pa rin (*sigh*). 'Di ko pa rin sila magawa, as of now, pending pa rin sila. I think inborn na talaga at 'di na mawawala sakin yung sakit ko eh, nakakatamad kasi. Well, if its supposed to be my "me-time" activity then there should be no rush naman diba? Somehow I just feel guilty.
Like my over-delayed scrapbook, *sigh* wala pa ko sa kalahati at tambak na ko ng pictures and other stuffs na pwedeng ilagay pero di ko pa rin magawa gawa. Kinukulit na nga ako ni emily and april na i-update naman daw ang scrapbook ko but no, procastination wins! hehe
Ganun atah siguro, especially now that other than my "me-time" activities, wala naman ako importanteng kelangan gawin (since currently I'm out of work) somehow I feel there's plenty of time to do it naman, so plenty kaya tinatamad ako. (bad! bad!) Pano ba magbagong buhay? hehe,, ang tamad mo dona! Anyway, baka mamayang medyo malalim na ang gabi eh sipagin ako at mapagbigyan ko na ang scrapbook ko, bumabalik nanaman ang pagiging night creature ko eh! hehe.. dilat ever nanaman kapag gabi til madaling araw, mas tahimik kasi saka walang istorbo, literal na "me-time" talaga! So hopefully mamaya magawa ko na siya. Mas tempting kasi umupo nlng sa sofa at paginitan ang dvd player namen eh.
Yaan mo, to my ever delayed scrapbook, wag ka magaalala, I'll find time for you! hehe..There's plenty of that right now, wait ka lang!
Ngayong bum ako, hmm alam ko madami akong plano.. Kaw na ang sa wakas eh nabigyan nanaman ng kalayaan gawin ang gusto mo.
Sa wakas di na ko kulong sa walong oras ng trabaho, idagdag mo pa ang OT na kinamumuhian ko. Extreme ba, pero totoo! Masyadong kontrolado ang galaw, limitado ang oras. Hindi lang limitado pero madalas okupado na ang kabuuan ng buhay ko. Okay lng din naman kasi panandalian yumaman ako, tumaba pa nga ako kasi kain lng ang bisyo ko. Pero mahirap magtrabaho sa isang uri ng trabahong wala ang puso mo (naks!nasan?). Kaya makalipas ang isang taon, napgdesisyunan ko na rin siyang iwan. Mahirap ang trabaho eh, nakakapagod. Alam ko masokista ako at natutuwa ako sa hirap. Pero yun na mismo ang dahilan kung bakit ako umayaw. Pag nahihirapan ako sumasaya kasi ako sa huli, kasi alam ko natapos ko siya at nagawa kong lampasan.Pero sa trabaho ko? bawat araw ang hirap pero hindi ako sumasaya. Alam ko din naman, bago pa lang ako pumasok sa working class na wala naman talagang madaling trabaho, lahat mahirap, pero naisip ko din, kung mahihirapan lang din naman, eh di dun na ako sa trabahong gusto ko ang pinaghihirapan ko. Yung sana hindi ko pagsasawaang pagpaguran. Aba mahirap humanap ng motivation kapag single ka at nagsisimula eh, aaminin ko yan. Wala pa naman kasi akong pamilyang binubuhay, pero kung magkakaron man, gusto ko yung naayos ko na ang buhay pagtatrabaho ko para di ko na sila masama sa kaguluhan ko sa buhay.
Kaya heto, habang bum ako, madami akong plano. Magiisip ako habang may oras pa. Pagsasawaan ang bakasyon at magmumuni muni. Para pagbalik ko sa lakaran, alam ko na ang kalyeng patutunguhan.
"Madona"
You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.
You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.
You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!
You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row.
You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace.
People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.
You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.
At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals
In the 8 facts about you, you share 8 things that your readers don’t know about you. Then at the end you tag 8 other bloggers to keep the fun going. – Each blogger must post these rules first.
– Each blogger starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
– Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their 8 things and post these rules.
– At the end of your blog, you need to choose 8 people to get tagged and list their names.
– Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog. 1. Ako ang pinaka malditang tao sa bahay namen..famous line ko ang "ayoko ng madumi" "ayoko ng masikip" pero "ayoko din maglinis" hehe.. 2. Im still not contented with my job anfd my performance 3. uhm 9 mos na kong nagmve on at parang isang dipa pa lng ang nilayo ko! sori naman! 4. Kuripot ako sa pera ko pero mabilis siyang mawala dahil sa pagkain at pagka impulsive ko..Pag pera ng nanay ko di ako kuripot..hehe 5. Masokista ako..enjoy ako sa siksikan sa mrt kasi nachachalenge ako!!..hehe..pero di ako masokista pagdating sa emotions ko..awww..saktan mo ko and you'll die! choz! 6. Kasali pa rin sa goals ko ang maging abogada! 7. Ever since 2nd year colege eh inasam ko ng mgkababy pero takot ako kasi mahirap bumuhay ng bata..ngpeprepare plng ako..hehe 8. Ngumingiti ako mag-isa..hehe..baliw..mahirap itago eh..mlamang may naisip lng akong kalandian nun..o kinikilig lng..hehe i tag- odessa,cherry,jaja, jp,kathsmyu,darryl, hannah and kate |
Bleh..Im feeling sick for four days already! How's that. Toughie me, i sdtill managed to work 3 days out of four. But yesterday was really terrible, I was already crying and sniffing all through out the day..It was like hell (though it was really cold in the office, making my situation worse!), even my supervisor had already excused me from taking an overtime. (Im really grateful for that! wheew.) So, that's another sick leave for me today, I hope I do get well for tomorrow since I still need to go to work. Yeah, work ethics sucks! Haha.. The funny thing is when you're sick, you tend to feel really lonely. The need for comfort lingers and all the sad thoughts comes near. Its like a death eater from the book of jk rowling and all you need are happy thoughts to scare them away. Good thing, I got a full stock of happy thoughts, thanks to my friends, family, and special people. The serenity of being alone is also calming to the mind, sometimes you need all the quiet environ to think and rethink of everything. It helps me to make decisions-Im crappy when it comes to this kind of things. And poor me, I still heaven't decided..I'm still talking my time but deep inside I know I'm getting close to the end, I'll be stopping that whole thing (whatever it is) soon. And for him: your a jackass! you always were! (just felt the need of telling.. ;p)
Yeah, already found a new home I could live in.. Still quite far from work but atleast I can finally live on my own,- that is away from my family. I think I could never feel like I'm a grown up as long as I stay there. You see, I've already went to college and now working and yet with their presence I never felt mature nor of age. Yes I've always been acting independently ever since I've learned to decide on my own but having your parents around always gave me the sense of dependency, the security that they give me makes me feel uneasy of what my future would be, that is,if I would still remain there with them. I have to be on my own, just as to prepare myself of the thought that my parents will not always be there. I just can't stay with them forever. That my life, though remained to be linked to theirs, must have its own direction. Better start it now.
Yeah, my wisdom tooth hurts...I said I want to be sick so that I could probably avail atleast one day of sick leave but then again this is not the kind of sickness I do want to have since it still goes bearable and serves as not an excuse for not going to work...haaay.... Today is Sunday, and apparently it is one of those days that serves me a beautiful long day rest.Though, its not really some kind of rest because I still got to prepare my things and myself for another days of work. Yeah, how I miss my college days. College days of enjoying the days of the semesters and only get studious when exams are already upcoming. Enjoying the day with my friends at our sunny and rainy tambayan, playing our ever famous charades and gossiping in to the lives of each of our brods and sisses. It always gets in to me, remembering how fun each class was, not because we enjoy the lessons but because we enjoyed each other's company no matter how terrible our teachers could be or how dificult the lessons are. The point is, we've experienced and overcome all of them together and the same. But now, its over. All that was left were the memories. Too bad we can't goback and that is why I miss it so badly. We are graduates now and all busy minding each other's businesses. College days are over and a new chapter has begun. New sets of friends came and a new environment to live upon. I just miss my college life, I miss my friends... So sad we can't go back to the life we had that time. It was so much of fun.. Fun and tears and all..
And yes...as I stare at him, hours and hours, the more I realize that my heart had stopped beating for him. Have I? I looked at his face and try to feel,during each stare, if I couls still find my heart somewhere. That I could still feel that indifferent feeling romantics usually feel when they are in love. There's no exact word for such a feeling but everyone who had fallen would more likely be familiar of what I am saying. But then again, back to the dilemma, or could it be? The blank stare gave me the idea, have I been numb? Has he turned in to a stranger of a familiar face? The numbness of the heart might have blocked my brain that whenever I looked at his face, it sends no signal to my brain nor my heart of the feeling any longer... Could it be such a sad fate or a lucky fortune that right at this moment I'm beginning to give my life back in to my soul. That I could now live wihtout the depressing thought that he could not make me happy nor I could make him feel the same. Disturbance had not yet been knocking on my door and for that I feel blessed. A goodnight sleep without anyone to think of, be it sad or bedazzling, I could say I'm happy with the situation. But sadness from time to time strikes as when I started to think of the what-could-have-beens and the what-ifs.. It is where the confusion starts and where I often find myself staring at his picture again, for hours and hours.....
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